Limburg and ADD

So it's been a while since I've updated this blog! Things here have been pretty good lately! I went to Limburg on holiday with Myrna and her family. I read a lot, walked a bit, went to the sauna, sat on terraces and enjoyed the sun! The only not so good part was that I had a bit of food poisoning on the last evening and after I got home on the tuesday, I had a very irritating migraine.

I had another migraine on saturday but it wasn't a normal migraine, i couldn't focus on anythign and could only see in a strip directly infront of me, to both sides were whirlpools and swirls in the air. So I slept a lot and luckily I have had no moar migraines since!

On friday I went to a place called PsQ or something like that where I spoke to a psychiatrist about seeing if I have ADD. We talked a lot about what's going on now (forgetting things, not noticing things, not being able to concentrate, not paying attention or paying too much attention, not seeing the details, zoning out etc etc) and what my childhood was like (constantly daydreaming, not listening or paying attention, very disorganised, forgetting things a lot, difficulty concentrating). I had only a few school reports with me that mum had been able to find and send to me so that was a bit annoying. But at the end of talking with him, and after he had also listened to what Myrna had to say about everything, he said that he thinks I have ADD but first he has to consult with his  colleagues and next time I come, we'll talk about treatment and discuss medication.

I feel very relieved! The things Myr and me fight most about is related to me forgetting things or not noticing things etc. And not being able to really concentrate for long periods on Dutch is very frustrating. Also a while ago I made a big text to my Dutch friends about speaking in Dutch with them. But sometimes I regret making that text because it requires a much higher level of concentration that I don't always have and it's not fun having to struggle to talk with your friends. I'm going to keep trying but it's just...difficult. Also at the moment, I have no clue how I can start and finish a study with my concentration being the way it is. I went to college when I was 18 after I finished school...I couldn't finish the study, the same thing happened with university. So for there to be an answer for why I am like this, it takes a bit of weight off my shoulders. I have a schedule that is on the blackboard in our living room and I'm trying to stick with it without Myrna having to start a fight about it. I think this has been on the blackboard for some months now, maybe 6 months. And in that time, I don't think I have ever completed every single task on the schedule for 7 days in a row. So my goal for this week is to do every task. Right now I think that keeping to a strict schedule and making lists and maybe with medication, then things will be a lot easier.

Well, now I'm feeling a lot more positive about everything and looking forward to the summer and warmer weather! And bbqs, don't forget the bbqs.