Piano Playing, dresses and moar!

On Tuesday Myr agreed to try to teach me how to play the piano! I'm very excited about it. I have always wanted to be able to play a musical instrument. Once my friend Vicki tried to teach me guitar but I had no patience for it and it hurt my fingers.

When I was ten or eleven, we were told at school that if we wanted to, we could sign up for viola lessons. I really wanted to so I signed up and went to see the music teacher who gave me a little musical test and if I passed then I could learn to play the viola. I passed the test but I wasn't allowed to take the lessons, it turned out, because my primary seven teacher had instructed her not to let me pass. I wasn't good at remembering my homework and I was very much a nuisance in general. And my teacher knew how much I wanted it and also knew how much I didn't behave that she thought playing viola would too much of a reward. I still don't understand why the music teacher let me take the test and get my hopes up only to shatter them afterwards!

But hey. Now Myr is teaching me the piano! I find it a lot of fun so far. When I was six or so, I had some piano lessons but my mum didn't like my piano teacher so that was the end of that.

So far I can only play two very short songs on the piano and even then I can't go all the way through without making some mistakes somewhere! But I thought I could record my progress if I make any by posting a few videos from time to time!

In other news I have dresses! I think the last time I wore a dress was for my prom. But I like the idea of them! I have now a black strapless dress that is quite short to above the knee and a longer purple one. Maybe I will ask Myr to take some photos later! Okay i'm going to try them on now!

A totally not boring blog.

I no longer have a job at the Mercedes dealer. I found out yesterday and it sucks because I really liked having more to do but I'm just going to keep searching for a better job. Preferably not a cleaning job. I'm not the tidiest person!

Today I am sitting at Myrna's parents house because I didn't really want to go home and have nobody to talk to until Myr gets home. So i'm trying to read my Dutch book on the tablet pc and I tried to do a blog yesterday but I was so miserable and down in the dumps it just wasn't going to happen! Today I have worked in the restaurant and also at Monique's.

I'm looking forward to the summer a lot, going to England and seeing mum and Cathy but also dad, brother and sisters! If all goes to plan I'll get to be with Anna on her eighth birthday.

An old friend recently got in touch so it was fun to hear from him again.

Tomorrow my friend Judith might be coming over so we'll probably play some WoW. Myrna has a BBQ with some colleagues. I was also invited but i think the conversation will be totally about work...*cue Kat drifting off*


I'm not on my own pc so no random but fun photo to throw in here and make my blog seem more interesting than it is! Boooo. Ooh I can put  up a video however! This is a video of my sister Anna dancing! She's so cute!

And here is a video of Nicola dancing ;D I wish I could dance...

ADD drama

This weekend has been a bit of a rollercoaster! Now it's 2.40am and I am staring at the computer screen unable to sleep.

On friday we had an inspection at work so they could see how well we have been cleaning the Mercedes place. Apparently we didn't do very well. The stupid thing is on thursday Mariska who I work with asked a couple of times if I could clean the stand that has toy smart cars in them because her boss noticed that the stand was pretty dusty. Of course I said, and continued cleaning other things. Later on she reminded me about the stand of smart cars. Yes! I am just on my way there now. Then she asked, Oh and could you also clean the main doors, they have some fingerprints. So Whooooosh, all the thoughts about the stand of smart cars promptly leaves my head because I start cleaning the main doors and don't reenter my head until the next day when Mariska notices the stand of smart cars is still not cleaned and worse, the inspection lady would have noticed that.

So I felt pretty lousy and stupid and blah. Sure, these types of things happen to everybody but they happen to me every single day and I'm getting very tired with it and I know Myr is also getting tired of it. And my whole big idea of being focused on my schedule that is on the blackboard sort of backfired because now I do my schedule but my Dutch is suffering and I'm not noticing the little things I used to notice. So I think i'm going to go back to how it was before with a less strict schedule but more noticing of other things. So even though I'm doing my schedule (which I thought would mean less arguments with Myr) is actually provoking a lot more arguments with Myr.

So the whole of today I wasn't really there but I didn't know I wasn't really there until Myr pointed it out to me. I cooked dinner and thought I thought of all the things like tidying up after myself but I missed things that I had no clue about despite having checked the kitchen twice.

It's very tiring to be in a relationship with me I think. And I haven't been back to the doctor yet (going back on the 14th of June) but I am pretty sure that it's ADD and that he'll come back and say that.

So! I have a few ideas to fix this.

1. Double and triple check everything to make sure I haven't missed anything.
2. Stop being insecure.
3. Stop with a strict schedule that leads to not noticing the small things.
4. Take the initiative/responsibility for things.
5. Think about things before blurting out stupid questions/comments.

I'm sure there are many more things but it's almost 3am at the moment and I am glasses-less which means my left eye is twitching. I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day! I shall leave you all with a picture of...

My Grandad and me! Grandad is going in for an operation on Monday so I'm thinking about him a lot but I am sure everything will be all right. :)

BBQing, Paul and Game of Thrones

It's Tuesday and that means Blogging! I had an interesting weekend. On saturday some friends came over to BBQ with Myr and me. Homemade burgers, asparagus with sesame oil and seeds, garlicky tomatoes, bread dough with knakworsten, aubergines, sausages and lots of other meat things i forget about now. There was plenty of beer and wine and it was a very fun night! We later had a fire where we toasted marshmallows.

Sunday was hot! Eddy had slept over the night before and he spent the day hanging out with us. Myrna felt like hapjes somewhere in the afternoon so me and Eddy loped off to the snack bar where we bought raspatat met pindasaus and bitterballen. I have no clue what raspatat is in English, nor do I know how to translate bitterballen except to say I don't think bitterballs quite sums it up!

Sunday evening was very weepy and meepy on my behalf. I near bit Myr's head off several times during the night when she would remind me of things I had missed or had not done or had forgotten about. That wasn't fun!

Monday was a much better day because in the evening, I met Myr, Sipke and Roland at a restaurant called Four Roses, a mexican restaurant and there I ate enchiladas with cheese. Way too much cheese! An overload of cheese. After there, we cycled to the nearby cinema where we met Olaf, Rinse and Michiel and watched 'Paul'. It was not my favourite Simon Pegg film but I enjoyed it. Some of the humour was a bit repetitive after a while but I very much enjoyed all the geeky injokes. I also like that you can buy big bottles of Grolsch and take them into the screen with you! I made some vague plans with Sipke to go see Insidious when it comes out and somewhere this week he'll come over to watch the fourth episode of Game of Thrones.

For those of you reading this who don't know, A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin is my favourite fantasy book series of all time. It's great. Great characters, great story, and he is very cruel to his characters! So I was beyond excited about the new series. I have now seen three episodes and I had assumed it would sort of be my new addiction and I'd be totally hooked from the pilot onwards! However I thought the acting in the pilot was a bit wooden and of course there wasn't the same depth to the characters that I had come to love and hate in the books. But okay, it was the pilot, things are just warming up. The second episode was in my opinion a lot better. Even the acting was better. (Anyone else think that Kit Harington as Jon Snow is just another Legolas type?) But it hadn't hooked me yet. Sipke pointed out that it was because we know the books so well and the series is so faithful to those books that it feels like we've seen it all before. I'm interested to know what people who have never read the books think. Does it still make sense without all the backstory? The third episode was great and the scene between Arya and her dancing teacher was even better than in the books. I think it's beginning to reel me in now but it's taking its time to do so.

Today I have been to work at the restaurant and done the things on my schedule (this blog being the last thing to do) and then at 15.30 I cycle to my other job at the mercedes place. This evening Myr and me are going to her colleague's place for dinner and boardgames so that'll be fun.

The above clip is of Blizzard and Gizmoo play-fighting. Well it was sort of play-fighting, but Blizzard was also having a 'I'm The Boss' day. Ooh my Dad was very cool in that he sent me some videos of my little sisters dancing to Lady Gaga's Born This Way. It was very fun to see!

Now I have a Myr's shoulders to massage. Until Friday, folks...

Some snapshots of Limburg!

Here are some photos of our holiday in Limburg! Part of my schedule says I have to update my blog twice a week! I couldn't think of what to talk about today so I cheated a bit and uploaded some photos for you guys to see :D Er in other news, my Grandad is going in for a surgery soon but I think everything will be okay and tonight Sipke is coming over to watch two episodes of Game of Thrones with me and tomorrow it will be 26 degrees here so that means BBQ!

 This is one of the Roman catacombs, it was quite spooky! Both Myr and me had a feeling of being watched so we didn't stay here long.

 Here is the castle! We didn't go up to see it though because when we thought about going, it was already closed for the day >.<

 These two photos are of an extremely creepy statue! It was standing near a sort of shrine to Mary. I forget who the statue is meant to be now.

 Walking in the forest! I lived in that hat during the whole holiday :D

 This is the place where Myr and me ate some very strange potato and leek soup. I thought it would be hearty and good! Instead they tried to make it too posh and ended up ruining it.

 Willem and Lucia enjoying the sun!

 I love this photo of Myr!

Limburg and ADD

So it's been a while since I've updated this blog! Things here have been pretty good lately! I went to Limburg on holiday with Myrna and her family. I read a lot, walked a bit, went to the sauna, sat on terraces and enjoyed the sun! The only not so good part was that I had a bit of food poisoning on the last evening and after I got home on the tuesday, I had a very irritating migraine.

I had another migraine on saturday but it wasn't a normal migraine, i couldn't focus on anythign and could only see in a strip directly infront of me, to both sides were whirlpools and swirls in the air. So I slept a lot and luckily I have had no moar migraines since!

On friday I went to a place called PsQ or something like that where I spoke to a psychiatrist about seeing if I have ADD. We talked a lot about what's going on now (forgetting things, not noticing things, not being able to concentrate, not paying attention or paying too much attention, not seeing the details, zoning out etc etc) and what my childhood was like (constantly daydreaming, not listening or paying attention, very disorganised, forgetting things a lot, difficulty concentrating). I had only a few school reports with me that mum had been able to find and send to me so that was a bit annoying. But at the end of talking with him, and after he had also listened to what Myrna had to say about everything, he said that he thinks I have ADD but first he has to consult with his  colleagues and next time I come, we'll talk about treatment and discuss medication.

I feel very relieved! The things Myr and me fight most about is related to me forgetting things or not noticing things etc. And not being able to really concentrate for long periods on Dutch is very frustrating. Also a while ago I made a big text to my Dutch friends about speaking in Dutch with them. But sometimes I regret making that text because it requires a much higher level of concentration that I don't always have and it's not fun having to struggle to talk with your friends. I'm going to keep trying but it's just...difficult. Also at the moment, I have no clue how I can start and finish a study with my concentration being the way it is. I went to college when I was 18 after I finished school...I couldn't finish the study, the same thing happened with university. So for there to be an answer for why I am like this, it takes a bit of weight off my shoulders. I have a schedule that is on the blackboard in our living room and I'm trying to stick with it without Myrna having to start a fight about it. I think this has been on the blackboard for some months now, maybe 6 months. And in that time, I don't think I have ever completed every single task on the schedule for 7 days in a row. So my goal for this week is to do every task. Right now I think that keeping to a strict schedule and making lists and maybe with medication, then things will be a lot easier.

Well, now I'm feeling a lot more positive about everything and looking forward to the summer and warmer weather! And bbqs, don't forget the bbqs.